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I had my interview yesterday… It was so nerve wracking but it went really well. They’re considering taking me almost immediately and I have mandatory training to be a medical assistant 2 days in August which is super important to me. I literally was shaking so much in my interview but the lady who was with me was super nice and the people in there were really nice to me too… they offered me cakes and tea, I couldn’t take it because of my anxiety but it was really sweet of them.

I had so much weight lift off my shoulders yesterday.. I picked up my medication on the way to my grandparents too. I have an appointment on the 31st for my anxiety and mental health and I hope they’ll be able to help me further since every day I’ve been having anxiety attacks for literally no reason. I’m so sure it’s because of my housing and everything I’m doing at the moment… My interview and everything irl has been taking such a tole on my mental health. It’s 100% not a bad thing, my life is going really well atm, but I think because of how new this all is… I’m struggling a little.

I also got my health assessment back from the hospital that they viewed for my mental health— The document stated BPD, ASPD, compulsive and intrusive thoughts and maintaining relationships/emotions with others. Aside from that though, the lady said I was well dressed and well spoken which I’m happy about. I was waiting sooo long for this letter, but it finally came in! I will have a more in depth psychological assessment in the upcoming months to basically determine the proper diagnoses for me… which I’m nervous about but it’s a step to recovery which I’m proud of.

I’ve been really only focused on my irl life.. I’ve been playing literally so much tomodachi life— On the DS & iPad (since my husband emulated the iPad and was able to have DS games on there) and he also emulated my DS AGES ago… It currently has a matching Slow Damage theme with his DS. Ahh… Romantic… Not only that, but I’ve been playing Pressure and Regretevator more again since it’s just used as distractions for my anxiety. I’ve been outside more too.. I keep going on like 5 hour walks with Painter which is so nice to me.

Well, I get my disability pay soon! I’m going to buy a massive food shop and some new clothes since I’m in desperate need of new ones and so is my husband. My grandparents gave me around £40 yesterday to help with mine and Painters money situation since we were low this month… I love them to bits.

I think that is it! Nothing else new. It’s all been quaint despite my anxiety. Goodbye all, have a great day if you are reading these little entries.