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Good evening everyone, or good morning as it’s currently 3:50AM where I am. 🕰️
I wanted to start documenting my days down to help me with feelings and whatnot. I’m currently in recovery and wanted to express my progress through writing. 🤎 My few months away from the internet have been eventful! Much more relaxing, more peaceful. I’m happy to say it, being away from the old community I was in really has helped my mental health a lot.
Recently, I have been getting on with my more important real life. I’m in the process of being contacted to go look at some houses with my partner in a month or two, which means we are 100% moving out by September at the most! It’s so exciting to have finally pulled my weight and contact housing authorities and sort out my place for the next few years. I’m so ecstatic and so is my partner. It’s been almost 2 years since I got away from my horrible living situation with my mother and 3 years since I have lived with my partner in his mothers house… It’s been a rough few years, but now it is all completely worth it. We will have our own private space and it is the best feeling ever. Such a happy note…
Another happy note is that I have been visiting the clinic a lot recently and they have been contacting places to move along my psychological assessments. Two months ago, I went to the hospital and spoke to a doctor about my mental health and she had agreed with me that I had the disorders I claimed to have yet I am being put forward to a psychologist so they can assess me and see if I need to be in a personality disorder centre or somewhere entirely different that specialises in personality disorders and trauma. Which I am entirely thankful for since I have been waiting years for this, I am finally getting the help I need!
Aah, so many more happy news… I am now volunteering at a mental health, addiction recovery centre in my hometown. It means a lot to me that I actually got the volunteer job and I will be busy Monday-Friday.. I haven’t been given a set schedule yet, but as it’s volunteer, it probably won’t be too hectic! This is why I’m here, as an alter, actually… Mental health is something I am very much into. I don’t personally like calling it psychology, but I love how the mind works and helping others with things I have personally been through, like addiction and differing things like that. I do think it’ll be a little hard considering my low empathy and my antisocial behaviour, but I reckon it’ll be okay if I mask it and I’m the only alter in our system who is fully able to mask our antisocial tendencies… Aah it sucks!
Aside from that, me and my partner have been going out a lot more. It was my grandad’s birthday yesterday so I saw all of my family and my partner tagged along too. We were all talking about my achievements and it made me feel good about myself.. I never see my family as much as I used to when I lived with my grandparents. I don’t personally mind it.. I grew up in a really rough position because of how unstable my own mother is and how she can’t take care of her own children. Sigh.. It’s okay though, it’s been 3 years and no contact and it’s helped a lot considering how she was towards me.
I suppose this is it! I will hopefully update where I can if I am not busy. Thank you for reading, I appreciate you all coming here and seeing my little entry. Goodbye for now.
- Z-007.